The Internet; infinite information, billions of connections and portal to a world beyond us. We have come to depend on this almost unreal privilege over the past few years. It is a curse and a blessing to have such power and knowledge. But I have learned the hard way not to give everything to it.
All of my work from the last two months is gone. I thought it was posting but unfortunately it was all in drafts. Some sort of bug made my words incomprehensible binary code. I talked to Google and they have fixed the problem so I can post again, but they were unable to revive my past posts. So here I am, I plan to retype my previous posts so they are all present on my blog. I just thought I'd fill you in on the goings on.
Have a great day!
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Wednesday, January 14, 2015
Astral Projection and Mutual Affection
79,800
That is a simple number.
79,800 out of 316,000,000
That is a representation of dreams coming true.
79,800 people become registered actors with contracts, whether it be on the screen, or on the stage in America. Such a small number in comparison with the huge amount of people at every school in the USA that wish to "make it big" for all the ones who wish to be heard, recognized and known. But that's show biz', kid.
I'm am not ignorant. I'm not naive. I am fully aware that investing myself in this career path could end in poverty, loneliness, and tragedy. But I am steadfast, I am firm, I am dedicated to the idea of becoming an actress. For what could be more magnificent than making people feel something deep within them. What could be more rewarding then putting to words what someone can not. Whether it be through film or through stage, this is my dream.
So, this is how it all started, and this is how far I have come.I became interested in the Theater through an extra credit project at my middle school. I saw my peers dancing and singing on stage, and I had a sudden vision of my life and where I wanted it to go. Forever altered, my life had taken its first step to where I am now. Over the course of the next few years, I auditioned for 36 shows and only got into 2. It was very discouraging, but I knew this is what I wanted to I kept at it. I took steps to achieve my goal, worked to pay for dance, voice and acting lessons, really tried to absorb and work on what my teachers told me to. Eventually it paid off and I got a supporting role, and now I have a lead role in Shrek the musical and I cannot even express my overwhelming happiness, and gratitude for this opportunity which has been so graciously placed in my lap. This chance is one I have waited almost 4 years for. Its something that cannot even be put into words, but it makes me cry every time I think about it. To have that trust and respect finally placed on me by my fellow actors and director, after so much disappointment and hard work, is such an unreal experience. And I thank everyone who helped me get to this point.
This topic is not only about acting or singing. It is about perseverance, dedication, commitment, confidence and hard work. Theater has been used to build the confidence of politicians, shy children, and people with mental deficiencies. It is such a safe environment for anyone who feels "different" or out of place. I want my journey to open up options for people who thought they didn't have any. I want everyone who reads or see this, and any of the articles pertaining to it to see what a community effort these productions are. How everyone comes together and becomes a family; how each persons effort helps the show, how everyone is appreciated and loved. These not only teach about family dynamics, but how to really feel responsible and needed. If you have a job and just don't do it, the whole show will falter. Not only that but it teaches everyone involved to be self-sufficient and confident in their abilities, to prepare and be ready for anything. Really, all reality skills, and its super rewarding.
In order to really succeed in this industry some skills to know are; history, English, music, dance, costuming, carpentry, lighting, psychology, speech, and economics.
The best way to learn in this field, is through experience and great teachers, with knowledge to offer and advise to give. Another way is through intensive programs offered at most universities, and even at movie studios. To do this costs money, meaning scholarships and lots of hopeful donations. Or to capture the attention of people with connections and compassion. really its all about who you know. I am horribly left in the dark when it comes to both money and connections, so in my case lots of networking, and work. I know it will be worth it. If none of this where a problem, I would want to go to the American Academy of the Dramatic Arts, 5 week intensive acting program over the summer. Its $3,750 for the five week classes and 2 electives, also housing for while I am studying with some of the best vocal coaches and Dramatic Arts professors in America. Also another 5 week acting intensive in San Francisco at the American conservatory of art. However, money and time, huge issues unfortunately. Really all I can do is get experience locally and hope for the best, but keep trying as hard as I always have been.
To show my journey to these goals i will most likely make a new blogger account specifically for these goals. to show I will use words, video and picture.
Really I'm just excited to see where the rest of this year takes me, I'm going to work hard and am glad to have you on this journey with me.
Selah, Twiggy
That is a simple number.
79,800 out of 316,000,000
That is a representation of dreams coming true.
79,800 people become registered actors with contracts, whether it be on the screen, or on the stage in America. Such a small number in comparison with the huge amount of people at every school in the USA that wish to "make it big" for all the ones who wish to be heard, recognized and known. But that's show biz', kid.
I'm am not ignorant. I'm not naive. I am fully aware that investing myself in this career path could end in poverty, loneliness, and tragedy. But I am steadfast, I am firm, I am dedicated to the idea of becoming an actress. For what could be more magnificent than making people feel something deep within them. What could be more rewarding then putting to words what someone can not. Whether it be through film or through stage, this is my dream.
So, this is how it all started, and this is how far I have come.I became interested in the Theater through an extra credit project at my middle school. I saw my peers dancing and singing on stage, and I had a sudden vision of my life and where I wanted it to go. Forever altered, my life had taken its first step to where I am now. Over the course of the next few years, I auditioned for 36 shows and only got into 2. It was very discouraging, but I knew this is what I wanted to I kept at it. I took steps to achieve my goal, worked to pay for dance, voice and acting lessons, really tried to absorb and work on what my teachers told me to. Eventually it paid off and I got a supporting role, and now I have a lead role in Shrek the musical and I cannot even express my overwhelming happiness, and gratitude for this opportunity which has been so graciously placed in my lap. This chance is one I have waited almost 4 years for. Its something that cannot even be put into words, but it makes me cry every time I think about it. To have that trust and respect finally placed on me by my fellow actors and director, after so much disappointment and hard work, is such an unreal experience. And I thank everyone who helped me get to this point.
This topic is not only about acting or singing. It is about perseverance, dedication, commitment, confidence and hard work. Theater has been used to build the confidence of politicians, shy children, and people with mental deficiencies. It is such a safe environment for anyone who feels "different" or out of place. I want my journey to open up options for people who thought they didn't have any. I want everyone who reads or see this, and any of the articles pertaining to it to see what a community effort these productions are. How everyone comes together and becomes a family; how each persons effort helps the show, how everyone is appreciated and loved. These not only teach about family dynamics, but how to really feel responsible and needed. If you have a job and just don't do it, the whole show will falter. Not only that but it teaches everyone involved to be self-sufficient and confident in their abilities, to prepare and be ready for anything. Really, all reality skills, and its super rewarding.
In order to really succeed in this industry some skills to know are; history, English, music, dance, costuming, carpentry, lighting, psychology, speech, and economics.
The best way to learn in this field, is through experience and great teachers, with knowledge to offer and advise to give. Another way is through intensive programs offered at most universities, and even at movie studios. To do this costs money, meaning scholarships and lots of hopeful donations. Or to capture the attention of people with connections and compassion. really its all about who you know. I am horribly left in the dark when it comes to both money and connections, so in my case lots of networking, and work. I know it will be worth it. If none of this where a problem, I would want to go to the American Academy of the Dramatic Arts, 5 week intensive acting program over the summer. Its $3,750 for the five week classes and 2 electives, also housing for while I am studying with some of the best vocal coaches and Dramatic Arts professors in America. Also another 5 week acting intensive in San Francisco at the American conservatory of art. However, money and time, huge issues unfortunately. Really all I can do is get experience locally and hope for the best, but keep trying as hard as I always have been.
To show my journey to these goals i will most likely make a new blogger account specifically for these goals. to show I will use words, video and picture.
Really I'm just excited to see where the rest of this year takes me, I'm going to work hard and am glad to have you on this journey with me.
Selah, Twiggy
Friday, December 5, 2014
3 Ways to Take the Fun Out of Travel
Recently I traveled to the Midwest for a family reunion using Frontier airlines to get there. Before hand I was ecstatic; I love to fly, the environments of airplanes and airports are amazing to me. All the different types of people together in one place, culture and worldliness, a bigger sense of self, I love it. But everything is changing on the air lines and its not for the better.
1. Nothing is Complimentary
I remember a time when they would give you a little snack, a drink, a blanket and or pillow if you wanted, and a free on flight movie. Not anymore, it cost 2 dollars for one little cup of drink, 3 dollars for a tiny bag of m&m's, and 6 dollars for a movie. Why? Is making money that necessary? The big business of travel and ruining the adventure for passengers. It is no longer the pleasant life changing experience that it used to be. Greed has taken over. The corporation should, at least I think, tone down on the obsession with money focus more on the people they are transporting.
2. The Change of Baggage Policies.
Nothing on the website front and center, but deep with in the rules and regulations of the frontier travel guide there is a big change to the baggage policies. No longer is it free for carry on's, and 30 dollars for a checked bag. Unbeknownst to many travelers it is now 35 dollars for a carry on and 20 dollars for a checked bag. People are misinformed and having to hand over money for bags, and its stupid. The reasoning behind the change is to speed the boarding process up and I respect that. But if you are going to make such a big change you need to inform the travelers ahead of time. I cannot tell you how many people I saw having to swipe credit cards to pay for their bag.
3. Advertisement and Commercialism.
When I first sat down in my seat I noticed a little TV right at eye level in the seat in front of me. Playing cute little animation during the safety talks and pictures of clouds. Well, that's pretty cool right? Wrong, there's no movie paying unless you want to pay an obscene amount of money. So the entire flight you have the same Frontier and Volkswagen commercial playing over and over and over again for 5 hours. You cant turn it off, and you cant turn the brightness down its just right there, right in front of your face, the whole flight. I'm still a little bitter at this point. I felt as if I was in Fahrenheit 451.
flying is flying, anywhere you go. The whole trip was still very fun and I enjoyed looking at the earth from high above, and conversing with people from all over. The community and energy in airports and on each flight was very enjoyable. I just wish that everything wasn't so big business driven.
1. Nothing is Complimentary
I remember a time when they would give you a little snack, a drink, a blanket and or pillow if you wanted, and a free on flight movie. Not anymore, it cost 2 dollars for one little cup of drink, 3 dollars for a tiny bag of m&m's, and 6 dollars for a movie. Why? Is making money that necessary? The big business of travel and ruining the adventure for passengers. It is no longer the pleasant life changing experience that it used to be. Greed has taken over. The corporation should, at least I think, tone down on the obsession with money focus more on the people they are transporting.
2. The Change of Baggage Policies.
Nothing on the website front and center, but deep with in the rules and regulations of the frontier travel guide there is a big change to the baggage policies. No longer is it free for carry on's, and 30 dollars for a checked bag. Unbeknownst to many travelers it is now 35 dollars for a carry on and 20 dollars for a checked bag. People are misinformed and having to hand over money for bags, and its stupid. The reasoning behind the change is to speed the boarding process up and I respect that. But if you are going to make such a big change you need to inform the travelers ahead of time. I cannot tell you how many people I saw having to swipe credit cards to pay for their bag.
3. Advertisement and Commercialism.
When I first sat down in my seat I noticed a little TV right at eye level in the seat in front of me. Playing cute little animation during the safety talks and pictures of clouds. Well, that's pretty cool right? Wrong, there's no movie paying unless you want to pay an obscene amount of money. So the entire flight you have the same Frontier and Volkswagen commercial playing over and over and over again for 5 hours. You cant turn it off, and you cant turn the brightness down its just right there, right in front of your face, the whole flight. I'm still a little bitter at this point. I felt as if I was in Fahrenheit 451.
flying is flying, anywhere you go. The whole trip was still very fun and I enjoyed looking at the earth from high above, and conversing with people from all over. The community and energy in airports and on each flight was very enjoyable. I just wish that everything wasn't so big business driven.
Sunday, November 30, 2014
Poetry that Doesnt Suck
Postcards by Sarah Kay
I had already fallen in love with far too many postage stamps.
When you appeared on my doorstep wearing nothing but a postcard promise.
No, appear is the wrong word. Is there a word for sucker punching someone in the heart? Is there word for when you’re sitting at the bottom of a roller coaster and you realize that the climb is coming, that you know what the climb means, that you can already feel the flip in your stomach from the fall before you’ve even moved? Is there a word for that?
There should be.
You can only fit so many words in a postcard. Only so many in a phone call, only so many into space before you forget that words are sometimes used for things other than filling emptiness. It is hard to build a body out of words – I have tried.
We have both tried.
Instead of lying your head against my chest, I tell you about the boy who lives downstairs from me. Who stays up all night long practicing his drum set. The neighbors have complained. They have busy days tomorrow, but he keeps on thumping through the night convinced, I think, that practice makes perfect. Instead of holding my hand, you tell me about the sandwich you made for lunch today. How the pickles fit so perfectly against the lettuce. Practice does not make perfect.
Practice makes permanent.
Repeat the same mistakes over and over and you don’t get any closer to Carnage Hall, even I know that. Repeat the same mistakes over and over and you don’t get any closer! You never get any closer. Is there a word for the moment you win tug of war? When the weight gives and all that extra rope comes tumbling towards you. How even though you’ve won you still wind up with muddy knees and scratches on your hands.
Is there a word for that? I wish there was.
I would have said it. When we were finally alone together on your couch, neither one of us with anything left to say. Still now, I send letters into space. Hoping that some mailman somewhere will track you down and recognize you from the descriptions in my poems. That he will place the stack of them in your hands and tell you “There is a girl who still writes you. She doesn’t know how not to.”
This is honestly one of my all time favorite poems, for multiple reasons. One of the main ones being the simplicity of the words, the pureness of the tone; Sarah Kay, is a master at painting pictures for the broken hearted. She has this way with her words that caresses your brain stem and brings up memories and pulls, tugs at buried emotions. She puts words to the unspeakable and complex nature of relationships. The horribly confusing and frustrating quietness that can creep through homes, the silent killer of marriages and friendships. Sarah (in all of her poems) has a certain soft mood that envelopes the reader in a blurred, warm world only to violently crash reality on their heads with relatable metaphors and imagery.
This poet has a way with words, and most certainly doesn't suck.
Wednesday, November 12, 2014
Not With a Fizzle, But With a Bang
I love when books take you on a journey. I think the most amazing thing in the world is being taken away from your reality by a book that teaches lessons, takes breaths, has wild adventures, forbidden ideals and philosophy beyond comprehension. Fahrenheit 451, at least for me, has been a journey from the start. Although the whole of the book is utterly fascinating and could be analyzed endlessly, I would like for the moment to focus on the end of this piece of literature.
I wonder how it would feel, to be wrapped up in a drama, so plastic and unreal that an atomic blast is the only thing that would wake you up. I wonder what those people thought in their last fiery moments before the blaze obliterated their every sense of self. And for Montag to watch that paper thin society that he had known most of his life go up in such splendor and color; just enough to impress the culture underneath its heat. Montag must push through these ashes and create information, knowledge and history through the embers.
Montag and his band of brothers become the books, the soul surviving members of an unaccepting hateful society, with plans to rebuild and prosper the men head back to the city. All this for some books.
But no it's so much more than that. Its knowledge, its prevention of past mistakes and the evolution of humanity in a decent direction. Books bring so much more than a good story. They bring light to wrong doings, quiet serenity to hectic lives, information, data, material, instruction, enlightenment, propaganda, numbers, letters, change. Through flowery language and harsh words books have altered the world. And that is something worth fighting for.
"There was a silly damn bird called a Phoenix back before Christ: every few hundred years he built a pyre and burned himself up. He must have been first cousin to Man. But every time he burnt himself up he sprang out of the ashes, he got himself born all over again. And it looks like we're doing the same thing, over and over, but we've got one damn thing the Phoenix never had. We know the damn silly thing we just did. We know all the damn silly things we've done for a thousand years, and as long as we know that and always have it around where we can see it, some day we'll stop making the goddam funeral pyres and jumping into the middle of them. We pick up a few more people that remember, every generation." (163)
Twiggy
I wonder how it would feel, to be wrapped up in a drama, so plastic and unreal that an atomic blast is the only thing that would wake you up. I wonder what those people thought in their last fiery moments before the blaze obliterated their every sense of self. And for Montag to watch that paper thin society that he had known most of his life go up in such splendor and color; just enough to impress the culture underneath its heat. Montag must push through these ashes and create information, knowledge and history through the embers.
Montag and his band of brothers become the books, the soul surviving members of an unaccepting hateful society, with plans to rebuild and prosper the men head back to the city. All this for some books.
But no it's so much more than that. Its knowledge, its prevention of past mistakes and the evolution of humanity in a decent direction. Books bring so much more than a good story. They bring light to wrong doings, quiet serenity to hectic lives, information, data, material, instruction, enlightenment, propaganda, numbers, letters, change. Through flowery language and harsh words books have altered the world. And that is something worth fighting for.
"There was a silly damn bird called a Phoenix back before Christ: every few hundred years he built a pyre and burned himself up. He must have been first cousin to Man. But every time he burnt himself up he sprang out of the ashes, he got himself born all over again. And it looks like we're doing the same thing, over and over, but we've got one damn thing the Phoenix never had. We know the damn silly thing we just did. We know all the damn silly things we've done for a thousand years, and as long as we know that and always have it around where we can see it, some day we'll stop making the goddam funeral pyres and jumping into the middle of them. We pick up a few more people that remember, every generation." (163)
Twiggy
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